A Bump in the Road

This week would have been egg retrieval if everything had gone according to plan, but it didn't. On Saturday afternoon, our IVF cycle was cancelled. Pretty much everything our doctor saw in me wasn't normal. I am not the typical IVF patient. My cause is unknown, which makes it harder to pinpoint. After almost calling off IVF four times last week (roller coaster!), the straw broke the camel's back Saturday afternoon, and our only solution was to cancel (we had five things working against us. It would take an hour to explain them all here.) I didn't think it would work the first time, but I thought we'd at least make it to retrieval. That has been the disappointing part--how many mountains we climbed to even make it to the second week. It also counts for one of the three tries that we signed up for, even though we still had two weeks of IVF left.

BUT we feel blessed we have two more tries. We know that the Lord is in this, and that if He wanted this to happen now, He would have ensured it did. He can move mountains, after all, and I know He has His hand in this. I learned a lot of things the last few weeks: how to be a pincushion every night and day, the effect the medicine has on me for next time, and to feel more compassion for those who are sick--how miserable it must be to feel unwell all the time; I only experienced a fraction of that. Our doctor learned some things to do for next time and was so kind and supportive through it all, even when he called to break the news. I have received sweet texts from dear friends near and far, support from family, and some delicious cake from a neighbor to lift my spirits! I definitely felt Heavenly Father's comforting hand as I attended church yesterday...He knows the BEST thing for us!

We are looking at the May IVF as our next step, but need to meet with our doctor first to discuss some more things. Onward and upward!

Our first day of IVF. We already had our first scare of it not happening that day.

Ben became a chemist during this whole process. So much precise mixing and syringing...

Ben was the best, most gentle nurse ever. It was his first time giving shots, and he did it like a pro. 

Some of the bruising from the shots. 

The first time we thought we might have to cancel Ben brought me white roses. They have survived the last two weeks of construction; they bloom even in chaos. A great reminder to me. 

On top of it all, our kitchen remodel started last week. It has been a perfect excuse not to cook and just take it easy. Our cabinets get installed this week. It has been a good distraction amidst all the kaffufel. 

Our makeshift kitchen--perfect for grilled cheese, Marie Calendar's pot pies, and popcorn :)

The Before!

 The current...To Be Continued!